sahara [Contact]
Real name: Sarah
Member Since: 01/18/2010
Membership Status: Member

I didn't used to write. It took me a year & the prodding of a very talented author on this site for me to actually post something. I'm still more of a rabid Rogan reader than writer though. I pass the time in between fics by maintaining a real-life job in victims' rights and worrying about how I'll manage my Rogan habit & studying for my masters.
 
Reviews by sahara
Marie thought she'd left her life as an X-Man (and Logan) behind when she left the Mansion. But now Wolverine is missing and she may be his only hope. But can she afford to step back into the Mansion, back into the lifestyle and most importantly back into Logan's life?

Rated: NC-17
Categories: AU, X-Men Origins Wolverine
Characters: None
Genres: Action, PWP, Shipper
Tags: None
Warnings: None

Series: None
Chapters: 38
Wordcount: 72361 - Hits: 338450
Complete?: Yes - Published: 04/22/2010 - Last Updated: 01/07/2011
Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 01/08/2011 Title: Chapter 36: It's A Long Way To The Top (If You Wanna Rock And Roll)

Oh m'goodness...I thought I loved beignets before, but now...oh man, now I have a whole new appreciation. Best way to wake up ever. Wolverine Beignet Delivery Service would be such a hit. And really - there is enough powdered sugar to leave a trail & then some. Like, if Logan wanted to cover himself in some that'd be okay too.

Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 01/08/2011 Title: Chapter 37: Breaking The Rules

That.

Was.

Devastatingly Smut-tastic.

Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 01/08/2011 Title: Chapter 38: Epilogue: Let There Be Rock

*cries uncontrollably*

It can't be over! I won't accept that!

Not only did you create this amazing plot & write some killer scenes and dialogue, but it feels like you created this world for us to peak into. I loved every second of it :)

Thank you for this

This is the second part to Orphans of Chaos.

Follows The Patient

We find out what happened to Logan all this time.

Rated: Adult
Categories: X1, AU
Characters: None
Genres: Angst
Tags: None
Warnings: None

Series: The Orphans of Chaos
Chapters: 7
Wordcount: 10242 - Hits: 32995
Complete?: Yes - Published: 04/27/2010 - Last Updated: 05/28/2010
Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 06/01/2010 Title: Chapter 7: Epilogue And To Ashes We Return

I'm now kind of obsessed with the song you included. Fits perfectly with this chapter

Author's Response: thank you I thought so too, I love that song!

retired featured story In which everything comes full circle. Part angst, part happiness, and a coin-toss decides the end.

Rated: R
Categories: X1, X2, AU
Characters: None
Genres: Angst, Drama, Shipper
Tags: None
Warnings: None

Series: None
Chapters: 6
Wordcount: 38572 - Hits: 35987
Complete?: Yes - Published: 05/05/2010 - Last Updated: 07/10/2010
Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 05/05/2010 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

Hmm, I know you're still deciding, but can I vote for the happy ending? These two get enough thrown at them, they could use some warm fuzzies at the end of the day. Why yes, yes I am a little biased since I read this after crying my eyes out over the latest episode of my favorite show. So please with the happy?...and kittens...

I am still crazy jealous of your mastery of the English language and subsequently putting them fancy words all together right nicely. Everything either of them notices/describes is so very detailed, but still delicately subtle at the same time. Boggles my mind as to how you do that.

Favorite: "The light from the chandelier glints off his face. The green in Logan's eyes absorbs it, like a forest pine tree touched by the morning light. Nothing escapes those eyes. Reading me completely, even the fine print. They widen; his nostrils flex and I feel like I'm telling him secrets I didn't even know I had."

Author's Response: Hello again. I think it\'s bad luck not to respond to an awesome long review(my favorite kind), so I will again. Feel free to skip it. ;-) .....I\'m happy for your vote, and I gotta say Im leaning toward happy ending. (Ssh. Dont tell.) Can\'t promise anything, though. Im, like, 70%. Im glad you enjoyed the chapter/my descriptions, and I hope you will continue to do so. Thanks.

Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 05/14/2010 Title: Chapter 2: Chapter 2: PART ONE

Good lord I can't tell you how relieved I am that Logan didn't go through with it. When I first read that from Marie's perspective it made me a little sick.

There's so much desperation between these two, especially the scene in the beginning and you manage to convey that so well without actually saying that. Sigh, they need to communicate so badly. And Jean needs to be thrown off of the Blackbird.

Author's Response: Before I wrote the chapter, I was actually planning for him to. But, as it turns out Jean/Logan sex makes me sick too. Thank you for the feedback! Super muchas gracias.

Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 05/28/2010 Title: Chapter 3: Chapter 2: PART TWO

Yay! I missed this! Absolutely well worth the wait. I like how you can see the beginnings of their history with miscommunication - her insecurity w/ her fighting & how impressed he is with her.

You capture their POVs so perfectly. So he strips down before she knocks on his door, eh? Hmm. I'd wake up early for that too.

Favorite line: "The bigger question is: why would she choose a story that makes her cry, over a man who never would?" Direct, simple, & heartbreaking. Although I'm greedy, I'll manage another long wait if you keep churning out awesomeness like this!

Author's Response: Omg. >hugs very very very very very tightly< I can\'t tell you how glad I was to read this. I stressed a bit over this one. Thank you...and I think you\'ll see the next update in a week. >winces, knocks on wood<

Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 06/05/2010 Title: Chapter 4: Chapter 3

Invisible cupcakes! Not only did you write a great chapter, but you just came up with a desert that won't make me & my scale hate myself tomorrow. You're a genius :)

I have to say that I personally like how you divided up the chapter. I'm a "give me the bad news first" kind of girl, so I enjoyed ending with a sweeter memory of theirs. Hate what they're going through in "real time" though, but stoked that there's an 85% chance of some happiness.

I also have to say that when it comes to capturing emotions & the mental frailty of anyone in these circumstances, you couldn't do any better. The miscommunication, overwhelming inability to process anything, desperate need to just shut down. It's all there & as usual for you, written quite well :)

Author's Response: Oh my god, Marry me! (Lmao)....Thank you. It was either a cupcake or a kitten, but I figured ya\'ll wouldn\'t have to deal with invisible hairballs with this....I\'m glad you liked the format. I didn\'t want reader to think I was skipping ahead, and like you said, I leave off with a smile so things werent entirely miserable....Again thank you, so much. >hugs< I really appreciate it.

Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 06/19/2010 Title: Chapter 5: Chapter 4

Oh mess how I desperately want a happy ending for them :(

If this is what you give us after an extended period of time then it's worth it. This is quality. Everything you described felt tangible. It's by far the most visual chapter so kudos.

There are so many things that stood out to me here, but the one thing that I have to mention that appealed to the part of me that probably needs therapy was the Great Decking of Jean Grey. Holy crap was that satisfying!!! - wouldn't have been if you hadn't written it so clearly. Blows my 'tossing her out of the jet' out of the water.

Also a personal fave: "Logan is torn between saying, 'aw', and pinning her to the wall." Had to genuinely laugh out loud at that one. Pretty accurately describes Logan in most fics. You got it in one ;p

*here's hoping for happy endings & kittens*

Author's Response: Author Response? What? Are you blind? ....huh?...Oh! You mean you cant see me dancing and running around my house, screaming, \'yes!\'? Oops. My bad....>dances, screams< Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 06/20/2010 Title: Chapter 4: Chapter 3

"He doesn't eat kittens!" Had to point out that I re-read this (As I am wont to do with your fics) and caught this. Of course I giggled. I'm enjoying how kittens are the new easter eggs ;)

Author's Response: I\'d absolutely love to not say anything, just let it slide and claim that clever line as my own, but I have to give credit where its due. Some very generous person put that up for adoption on Nanowrimo.

Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 07/12/2010 Title: Chapter 6: Chapter 5

Ahhhhhh! *brain explodes*. This can't be the end! Even though I love me some overt Rogan shippery-happily-ever-after-with-kittens-on-top-ness, I this this ending is appropriate and fitting. This was so heartbreaking overall, literally - this story got some pretty visceral reactions out of me. I cannot imagine how you cranked this one out & finished it! I'm glad you left it a little open ended for us hoping that these two make it back to each other :)

Go on & take your very well deserved break, but please don't leave us for too long. Riots will start. Bounty hunters will be on your trail. I will sit in a corner & cry.

Author's Response: Thank you! This was great to read after a long day. I was hoping you, especially would like it. I thought readers would be able to tell that the ending was leading to them getting back together, but for some I guess it didn\'t look that way. >puzzled< Anyhooters, thank you so so so so much for this. Im actually halfway through the first chapter of my next piece. But Im working full time now, so itll probably take a week to finish/type. >hugs<

Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 07/13/2010 Title: Chapter 6: Chapter 5

P.S. Re-read this (as I usually do with your fics) & found this: "He's like the activities director on a cruise ship. He's always, you know...ready. I don't think he even sleeps." Oh man did I laugh like a crazy person. Cruises have never appealed to me until now. That would be the best vacation ever.

I'm just going to go entertain that thought in my brain for a bit.

Author's Response: Lmao! Thanks. (To be perfectly honest, Ive never been on a cruise.) And Im on my way to start typing up the next story. :~) ;~)

Logan's obsession with Jean drives Rogue away. Rogue goes a little crazy, just to prove she can. Can Logan win her back, or is it too late?

Rated: NC-17
Categories: X1
Characters: None
Genres: Adult, Shipper, UST
Tags: None
Warnings: None

Series: None
Chapters: 15
Wordcount: 26928 - Hits: 129433
Complete?: Yes - Published: 05/27/2010 - Last Updated: 06/13/2010
Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 06/03/2010 Title: Chapter 13: Get Off on the Pain

End here?! What?! I'm going to excuse that End Note as a momentary lapse of sanity. It's perfectly understandable of course - just reading this chapter melted my brain, I couldn't imagine writing it. Please, please continue. Riots start because of this kind of thing.

Author's Response: Oh, no! Since I don\'t want any riots happening, I guess I\'d better keep writing then, huh?

Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 06/13/2010 Title: Chapter 15: Gimme That Girl

I'm pretty sure you're going to get a resounding, unanimous, YES for a smutty sequel. Those are the best kind, after all. If only the movies followed that line of thinking. So in my humble opinion, it would be quite delightful if you should help us all forget the lack of Rogan-ness in the movie sequels with a follow up to this. I'd make you an award, made out of macaroni noodles, on a paper plate, with glitter! (very sorry, but I'm about to be a poor grad student :( but i'll do my best with it, promise).

Author's Response: If it\'s in the shape of Logan\'s head, or at least his claws, I accept! :-D

Follows: The hottest Love has the Coldest End.

We finally catch up to present Day.

Will Rogue remember who she is? Will Logan have a chance to reclaim his love?

Rated: Mature
Categories: X1, AU
Characters: None
Genres: Angst
Tags: None
Warnings: Character Death

Series: The Orphans of Chaos
Chapters: 4
Wordcount: 6353 - Hits: 16045
Complete?: No - Published: 05/29/2010 - Last Updated: 12/14/2010
Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 05/31/2010 Title: Chapter 1: Prologue The One Left Behind

Got into this story late. Interested to see where it goes. Very complex story, but you're handling it very well. So angsty! Please for some type of happy ending! Pretty please with a feral mutant on top. *bats eyes. pouts*

Author's Response: I\'ll try my best, but not before a lot of angst!! enjoy!

As the cure wears off, Rogue leaves for San Francisco, and after a series of unexpected encounters with a certain mutant in a similar situation, learns a little something about grief, vulnerability, loss—and the things beyond romance. (UPDATE: I've now divided this monster into three parts.)

Rated: R
Categories: X3
Characters: None
Genres: None
Tags: None
Warnings: None

Series: None
Chapters: 3
Wordcount: 19723 - Hits: 12709
Complete?: Yes - Published: 06/04/2010 - Last Updated: 06/14/2010
Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 06/18/2010 Title: Chapter 3: San Francisco, or In Praise of Mourning: THREE

I don't quite know what to say about this one except that it's one of my favorites. Even though I'm a bit of a whore for blatant Rogan shipper-ness, I really loved everything about this story and how you wrote it.

I can tell that you have a deep appreciation for Magneto & his portrayal in the movies and you definitely did the character justice in this piece. This story produced a very visceral reaction in me. I was reduced to tears during the park scene and little pieces of this story are still floating around in my brain (I read this yesterday, had to step away, & think about what to write in my review). It's pretty haunting. I think this will be one that I come back to & read over again.

Author's Response: I don\'t have words to thank you for telling me about the reaction you had to this story; I\'m floored by gratitude, really. But thank you so much, nonetheless. \"Visceral,\" and \"haunting;\" these are unbelievable compliments, and exactly the kind of response I so wish for. Especially since you typically love \"blatant Rogan shipper-ness,\" which I know I\'m poor at providing! So double, triple thanks, for that. I hope you will continue to find little things in it during your future visits. (And, yes, I certainly did pour a lot of my mad, complicated love for Magneto into it. Sigh.)

Logan breaks Rogue's heart, and she does her best to move on. Sometimes your best is more than good enough. And sometimes it isn't.

Rated: NC-17
Categories: X1, AU
Characters: None
Genres: Adult, Angst
Tags: None
Warnings: Not Beta Read

Series: None
Chapters: 30
Wordcount: 51376 - Hits: 233506
Complete?: Yes - Published: 06/09/2010 - Last Updated: 05/12/2014
Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 06/14/2010 Title: Chapter 6: Chapter 6

Your angsty drama has perfect timing for my incredibly shitty mood. Much appreciated. Not gonna lie, Logan & Jean sex makes me want to toss my cookies, but I'm just pissed enough to appreciate the drama. (And I'm liking the spoiling I'm getting by seeing more than one chapter updated :)

Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 06/14/2010 Title: Chapter 8: Chapter 8

*rolling in angst & loving it*

Again, much enjoyment of Bitch!Rogue ;) I even support more bitchiness! Cannot wait to catch up to "present time" and see what's going to happen on this mission. As delicious as Logan is I don't think I could ever forgive the Jean-whoring if I was Marie.

Casual sex, that isn't so casual. UPDATE: Final part and epilogue added. COMPLETED.

Rated: Adult
Categories: X3, AU
Characters: None
Genres: None
Tags: None
Warnings: None

Series: None
Chapters: 12
Wordcount: 83307 - Hits: 72082
Complete?: Yes - Published: 06/11/2010 - Last Updated: 06/26/2010
Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 06/14/2010 Title: Chapter 4: IT WAS EASIER TO LOCK THE DOOR

I'm really loving this. Honestly didn't expect to at first, but now I'm kind of hooked. Great idea & format!

Author's Response: Thank you for your lovely comment! Unexpected readers are much appreciated around here.

Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 06/15/2010 Title: Chapter 5: OLD FASCINATIONS, NEW SENSATIONS

So the f-bomb was used approx 78 times in this chapter...sorry, couldn't resist checking. Thank you for giving us Rogue's POV & what happened in Manhattan.

I especially like how they're Logan's ghosts, instead of his memories. That phrasing jumped out at me because when you think about it all of the heavy stuff in his past is haunting not just him, but Rogue too. Well those are my two cents.

Favorite part was #272 :)

Author's Response: Haha, thanks for taking one for the team, sahara. Yes, the Rogue in this story has a far filthier mouth than Logan, or anyon else, that\'s for sure. Maybe she absorbed a sailor without knowing it. Thank you for the comments about ghosts; being haunted is a definite concern in this story--and all my writing, really. And--gasp! 272 is my favorite one, too.

Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 06/17/2010 Title: Chapter 6: I’M SO GLAD THAT I’M AN ISLAND

Loved this line: "Instead he only looks at her with some mixture of tortured uncertainty and poorly concealed lust; and she doesn’t mind the first, as long as she can have the second, a little less concealed."

This one too: "What age has given her is the realization that every death is a different world; every loss a loss like never before."

This story is really growing on me because of how well it's written. If I had such a good grip on the English language that you have, maybe I'd be more able to tell you just how great I think your writing is :)

Author's Response: I really appreciate your line-by-line observations about what you responded to in the writing... and believe me, your grip on the English language, as evidenced by your lovely and thoughtful comments, has more than managed to make this little writer very happy. :) Thanks again for reading.

Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 06/18/2010 Title: Chapter 7: DIS-MOI CE QUE TU PENSES / DE MA VIE, DE MON ADOLESCENCE

" A single name is a box; and she knows no box is big enough for all the things that she alone has been..." Perfect characterization of Rogue here. I have to say how much I love and respect the way you can include some pretty deep and thought-provoking issues into your writing. (Where were you when I was struggling through my Psyc of Perception class, huh?) This is so much more than Rogan fanfic.

Author's Response: Thank you again for your lovely detailed comment, as always! Lord, I think I ought to be punched in the face for my pathological inability to let go of some of my dominant concerns as a writer (/human), especially with these two characters. It was supposed to be a light story, as opposed to the other two laugh-riots I\'d already posted. But at some point, the shark was severely jumped. Sigh.

Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 06/21/2010 Title: Chapter 8: IT’S ONLY WHEN I HIT THE GROUND IT CAUSES ALL THE GRIEF

In a hurry, but I can't read & not leave a review.

Beautifully written: "But there are already enough people behind the place where her eyes close, for her to know that she isn’t alone there, either."

It's crazy to me to see how easily you've managed to make these characters so *human* and not just...well, characters. If that makes any sense.

Author's Response: Thank you so much for review, as always... I\'m glad you liked that line. Rogue\'s situation is so peculiar, so unique, that it\'s 90% of the writing already done there, really. But thank you for your very very kind comment about the characterizations... it makes me happy to hear that they are living on the page in all the three-dimensionality I hope for. But again, the original characters themselves (even in X3!) are doing 90% of it, really... I\'m really compelled by all of the possibilities that their lives lend themselves to.

Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 06/25/2010 Title: Chapter 10: ENDING STARTS WITH ANSWERS

I didn't review the last chapter, I'm sorry! I feel like we're seeing a crack in Rogue's armor (finally! How long can a girl go like this!) I surprisingly feel bad for Remy (I'm really appreciating him thanks to the hotness of that scene in this chapter). I wonder how (if) Rogue's going to tell Logan all of this horrible info & what he's going to do with it :/

Author's Response: Haha, no worries! Yes, about the cracks in Rogue\'s armor, absolutely; though it does take a long time, it\'s life-sucking, after all! :) Haha, glad you enjoyed the Gambit scene. Figured the only way she\'ll listen to him would be under the influence of his notorious talents in bed. :)

Reviewer: sahara Signed
Date: 06/26/2010 Title: Chapter 12: EPILOGUE: LA RITOURNELLE

In the spirit of your honest writing I feel that I have to be honest in my review & tell you that I am a bit conflicted about the ending. As mentioned by a previous reviewer I'm also Rogan biased so I'm not sure how I feel about keeping Remy in the mix at the end. However, it does make sense with this story. I also can't imagine Rogue just tossing him aside after everything. Like you mentioned, this was an exploration of intimacy, not a means just to get Rogue & Logan together. So I respect that you stayed true to your characters.

I also have a lot of respect for your writing. As I said before, this was so much more than fanfic. This is especially true with the passages of other works that you included in the beginning of the chapters. Some really, very complex ideas that worked perfectly with the tone of your writing. Amazing and humbling. I can't wait to see what you share with us next.

Also going to check out your music suggestions :)

Author's Response: Thank you very much for this honest response to--yes, I suppose, honest writing. I expected readers to be conflicted with the ending--I know what website I\'m writing on! :)--but I genuinely cannot imagine another ending that is, as you say, honest to the story I have written. I wanted to explore the ways that Rogue and Logan can \"get together,\" in an unexpected, but no less true, way. I\'m so happy you enjoyed the epigraphs (citation for me, somehow particularly with these stories, is as important as the story itself, probably even more so). And I hope you enjoy the music suggestions! I especially recommend the the Roots one and all the Sébastien Tellier ones. They\'re the ones that really stuck with me, especially through the end. Haha--somehow, I feel it\'s a greater accomplishment to introduce people to those songs, than to have written this story! They\'re better, believe me. :)\r\n\r\n