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Member Since: 09/13/2006
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I have been reading fanfic since the X-files fic explosion of the mid-90s, but it wasn't until I came across Xmen fic - and specifically, the old old WRFA - that I was moved to write. It took me years to get around to doing so, however, and I published my first story in mid-2006.

My work tends to be rated R or NC-17 due to tendency to let Logan run off at the mouth, and a fondness for smut. My muses are big into psychodrama, so expect some weird stuff to happen, but otherwise I tend to mix it all up - angst, romance, action, sometimes even a stab at humour. I am not prolific, due the constraints of mothering two young children but am arrogant enough to think that the quality of my stories is worth the wait.

I also beta for a number of my favourite authors (go visit SkyblueRae, Sares/Deepsaltwater, and Laenwyn). I can't say no to these fabulous writers and tend to overcommit myself, so can't help anyone else out at the moment. Sorry!
 
Reviews by JaqofSpades
"...home of lost causes, and forsaken beliefs, and unpopular names, and impossible loyalties!" -Matthew Arnold

A Brotherhood Rogue is betrayed and finds herself in the middle of a very fractured team of X-Men after she kills one of their own. Now she has to figure out what Carol was & still is up to while juggling a tentative friendship with Jubilee, a growing resentment for the Professor, and a distracting attraction to the growling feral mutant who was sleeping with the woman she killed.

Rated: R
Categories: X1, AU, Comicverse
Characters: None
Genres: Angst, Dark, Drama, Shipper
Tags: None
Warnings: None

Series: None
Chapters: 12
Wordcount: 42049 - Hits: 86607
Complete?: No - Published: 12/28/2010 - Last Updated: 08/18/2011
Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 01/19/2011 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

Really enjoying this one. You have a lovely deft touch and keep up a cracking pace ... but the characters are still nicely fleshed out. Particularly liking Rogue's gradual introduction to Logan ... and Carol's memories :D

Author's Response: Thanks for this! Always, always, always great to know that a new face is enjoying this (not that you\'re new to the site or that I can see your face - that would be weird). I\'m very happy that you like the pacing so far. Hopefully, I\'ll be able to keep everything balanced :)

Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 02/23/2011 Title: Chapter 7: Chapter 7

Poor monster-bitten one. *pets you* I loved her little chat with Scott, it worked so well I could just see them facing off in the kitchen. The idea of Carol just lurking waiting for her chance felt perfectly right for this scenario, and its interesting how you've given that a physical manifestation (the sugar low thing.) That's not something I've seen before. I also enjoyed Rogue throwing down with Xavier; I love seeing his eminence get taken down a peg or six. And "wall-of-Wolverine". I laughed, laughed some more and then started staring into space, pondering the possibilities ....

Author's Response: The Closet Review Monster seems to be appeased. I printed out & tossed it the reviews & so far, so good. It also wants me to sent up a shrine to Hugh Jackman\'s abs. I\'m not going to question it. Phew, I\'m glad you liked lurking-Carol in this. I wasn\'t sure how that would go over. The low sugar thing - interesting in a good way? When I thought of a personality wrestling for control over Rogue & her body, that\'s what came to me. It\'s an odd, but visceral sensation if you\'ve ever had it (which I don\'t recommend trying out - passing out leads to ouchies). I\'m double glad you\'re digging the Rogue-Prof interaction - expect more de-pegging in the future. Yes, I\'ve already gotten my hiking boots out - I\'m gonna be alllll over that wall-o-Wolvie.

Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 03/27/2011 Title: Chapter 10: Chapter 10

Like it. Am sticking. Simple.

I really enjoyed the piano scene - it made immediate sense to me that a piano would MEAN something to her, and the mediatative nature of playing an instrument as a means of calming and centring herself - it's perfect.

Weird coincidence - my nearly six year old is a bit of a prodigy, and has just learnt to play that refrain, and I now hear Ode to Joy every morning before school - except our digital piano IS turned on:)

Take all the time you need - I'll be here for about a zillion years the way my piece is going ...

Author's Response: Oh will you still be sticking after all this time? I\'m an ogre. No really, I am. For neglecting you all for so long. Life, in a word, has been shit. Therefore my funtime writing has taken a hit. Not a fatal hit, but a pretty serious one. Once I finally manage to clean the shit up I will get back to this story. You have no idea how happy I am that you liked the piano scene. Oh You have no idea how much I love you for that comment! Ode to Joy was my first \"real\" piece on a different instrument, but I can even play that EEFGGFEDCCDEEDD, etc on my niece\'s mini piano toys....before she steals them from me...

Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 03/12/2011 Title: Chapter 9: Chapter 9

Is that meant to be cliffhangery? Because it sure feels cliffhangery. Like Rogue's hanging off a cliff - right *there*. But maybe its not a bad thing, Rogue! Maybe you just need to JUMP. Have a fabulous break ...

Author's Response: No, not meant to be cliffhangery. The only cliffhanger I think I\'ve written in this is the stairs scene. For this chapter, Marie\'s parting shot was just that - the end of their conversation. She really has no insight on this situation beyond what she just told Logan at that point. Maybe some theories, but nothing concrete to go on. I think she also wanted to let him know, in an underhanded kind of way, that he has a part to play in all of this - him, Scott, Jean, & Carol. That\'s something that I\'ll be going back to. (& thanks, my break - while disappointingly free of feral mountain men, was nice!)

Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed star star star star half star
Date: 07/11/2011 Title: Chapter 11: Chapter 11

What's not to love about some crazy Jubilee logic? The only thing missing in this chapter is the spark that runs between Logan and Marie in all their scenes together - and that can't be every chapter. There is a spark (of a very Wolverine-lite kind) with Pyro too, though, I think, and obviously interesting times on the way.

Author's Response: Sometimes Jubilee logic is the best kind of logic. Makes more sense than half of the stuff Xavier says, right? Yeah, delicious Rogany goodness was missing in this one, but now that we\'re quite a bit into the story I\'ve planned some more interaction between the two in the upcoming chapters. I want them to work through their respective...shit (for lack of a better term). It\'s more of a balancing act than I originally expected. Yes, interesting times on the way with Pyro. Stay tuned!

Movie/Comic hybrid. Rogue has two lives, one on either side of the cape. She loves two men. Logan has two lives, too, but without Jean, he wants to shed Wolverine. Can Marie and Logan escape the X-Men and the Brotherhood? Can mutants lead normal lives, like everybody else? Or has Magneto been right, all along?

Rated: Adult
Categories: X1, X2, X3, AU, Comicverse, X-Men Origins Wolverine
Characters: None
Genres: Action, Adult, Drama, Friendship, Humor, Shipper
Tags: None
Warnings: None

Series: None
Chapters: 6
Wordcount: 56679 - Hits: 28809
Complete?: No - Published: 01/09/2011 - Last Updated: 03/28/2011
Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 01/19/2011 Title: Chapter 4: Bringing It All Back Home

I'm loving this. Absolutely loving such a nice big chunk of the comic verse, nicely plotted and just jumping of the page. (Ok, screen.) My Logan still looks like Hugh, though. More please!

And through the pain, through the pain she mourns it. Mourns the loss of the child she was, of the adult she thought she’d be. Back when things were simple, easy, linear. When life followed a logical course, and she could tell you where she’d be in one year. Five. Ten.

Rated: Teen
Categories: X1, AU, Comicverse
Characters: None
Genres: Angst, Drama
Tags: None
Warnings: None

Series: None
Chapters: 7
Wordcount: 25491 - Hits: 37062
Complete?: Yes - Published: 01/25/2011 - Last Updated: 04/06/2011
Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 01/25/2011 Title: Chapter 1: Prologue

Oooh, I'm loving it. I'm a sucker for psychodrama, and this looks like its going to be very, very good in that department. The tone of the piece is just perfect for that - the hesitation and the repetition suggests the fractured mind struggling to make sense of the world. I must confess I actually stopped after reading Rogue's bit; I was surprised to see more. (Though Logan is always a GOOD surprise). His lurking and pacing in his helplessness was done nicely - very evocative and faithful to his character. Will stop now in case my review is longer than your story ... can't wait for the rest.

Author's Response: \"The tone of the piece is just perfect for that - the hesitation and the repetition suggests the fractured mind struggling to make sense of the world. \"\r\n\r\nTHANK YOU for this! When I first wrote it, I loved how it came across, but then when I was posting I started to doubt that it would work well for others, so it is nice to hear that I wasn\'t too far off the mark. \r\n\r\nAnd glad to hear that Logan was a happy surprise :-) I debated included that in this section or not but decided that ultimately, it was needed to have the opening make any kind of sense! \r\n\r\nThank you so much for taking the time to read and comment!

Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 01/29/2011 Title: Chapter 2: Chapter 1

Oh no. This is going to HURT. I'm such a sook. I do love the idea of you weaving the before and after stories together - hopefully, some happy moments to relieve the sadness of the other thread. Wonderful writing, beautiful storytelling.

Author's Response: \"I do love the idea of you weaving the before and after stories together\" I\'m very happy to hear that, as that is the format for the whole story :-D I wasn\'t certain how it was going to go over, but it seems like people are liking it, which is wonderful. Thank you so much for the lovely comments, and for takign the time to leave them!

How might things have changed if Logan knew all that Charles knew about his past.

Rated: Mature
Categories: X1, X2, X3, AU, X-Men Origins Wolverine
Characters: None
Genres: Shipper
Tags: None
Warnings: None

Series: To Touch the Moon
Chapters: 21
Wordcount: 35899 - Hits: 136594
Complete?: No - Published: 02/05/2011 - Last Updated: 03/12/2011
Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 02/25/2011 Title: Chapter 13: Chapter 13: Love Starved Thing

I'll understand if my "hell no!" doesn't hold much water, given my proclivities towards outright smut. But that said, I felt the sex scenes were a natural development in the story, and they weren't forced or false in any way. Nice work! (And I'm enjoying the wider story arc, too!)

Author's Response: Thank you very much...Your \"hell no\" is gratefully received and holds at least three gallons. I am glad that it didn\'t seem out of place...My muse and I were going back and forth on it and damned if ol\' Wolvie!Muse didn\'t win out.

Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 02/26/2011 Title: Chapter 14: Chapter 14: The Obligatory Morning After

I love stories where Marie's family isn't outright heinous. The thought of her still having a connection with her mother - even if it was strained by the puppetmaster - gives me warm fuzzies. Especially when it means she gets to introduce Logan ... take your time over that chappy because the possibilities are all kinds of delicious!

Author's Response: I sat down and asked myself as a mother what would my reaction be to my child if they were like Rogue and in no instance did I say to myself that I would shun or become hate full. Sorrowful, definately, but only in as much as my daughter would be denied a life she desired. Thanks this is the most exciting chapter so far to write. Here, I\'m feelin\' generous, have a hot and sweaty Wolverine. ;o)

Total, shameless, PWP. Although I've decided that the description was scaring people off, so I'll just say that it's AU. Logan and Marie meet under very unusual circumstances. And you'll know by the end of the first chapter if you're on board or not. ;-)

Rated: NC-17
Categories: AU
Characters: None
Genres: Adult, Angst, PWP
Tags: None
Warnings: None

Series: None
Chapters: 5
Wordcount: 13102 - Hits: 35973
Complete?: Yes - Published: 02/06/2011 - Last Updated: 02/20/2011
Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 02/09/2011 Title: Chapter 2: The Requirements

When I read your description, I flinched initially, but sold? Yes. Signed, sealed and delivered, I think. I am astonished you have managed to make this both credible and possibly even heartwarming and romantic. More, please.

Author's Response: Yes, I flinched myself at the idea. Which is partly why it stuck in my mind, I really got stuck on *what*, if any, set of circumstances might lead Logan onto that path. I think that\'s why the set-up is so long, the smex is really incidental. But still fun. :-) Next chapter I\'ll try to make it a little more believable for Marie to be there too. And honestly, Logan is not really a whore. It\'s just a flimsy excuse to get the two of them in bed even though they are virtual strangers.

Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 02/19/2011 Title: Chapter 4: The Wildness

Oh. Oh. Oh! All that sensual heat and gorgeous imagery, and then the tragedy bites. It's exactly what we expected to happen, but still, it HURT to watch it unfold. Lovely, lovely work. I think your porn has been overtaken by your plot, maam - don't you hate it when that happens? :D

Author's Response: Well, I\'ve never been clear on whether PWP is Porn WIth Plot or Porn Without Plot, but either way I think my plot did run away a bit with this story. I\'m so glad you liked it, I\'ve been loving your stories, so it\'s such a compliment to see a review from you.

Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 02/21/2011 Title: Chapter 5: The Impossible

Every now and then, a para comes along that just sums everything up - their entire relationship, the entire spirit of a fic, the reason we just LOVE to write Rogan ... and, imho at least ... you nailed it with this.

A half sob from her at that. “Impossible things.” She shook her head, and at first he thought she wasn’t going to say anymore. “That I’m not poison. That I’m not cursed. That he didn’t hate me. That he cared for me. And that he wasn’t afraid of me.” She put her head down again, and he saw the tears leaking out from under her eyelids. “I just thought...if there was just one person out there who wasn’t afraid of me, maybe it might be okay.”

Him, in her head, telling her to look beyond her own fears, and take a chance. That, for me, is the essence of Rogan and despite the fact I love the sexual potential, I love the feral, I love the twist on age old stereotypes, THAT is why I read, and write. The fact that you found that in the midst of a story allegedly about ManWhoreLogan is what makes this romantic and heartwarming. Thank you!

Author's Response: Wow, what a touching review. I am so glad you liked that part. I feel sometimes that I go overboard with Logan and Rogue\'s \"issues,\" -- I do so love pathos and angst, and they both have such great potential there. I was worried there that Rogue was coming across as a little melodramatic. But you\'re right...the thing I find sexiest and most touching is when Logan acts against \"type,\" and to know that the Logan in her head is brave enough to be forthcoming about the way he feels just because he knows her thoughts and knows that she needs to hear it SO much...that was very sweet to me.

It wasn't soft or slow, or even remotely romantic. But it was real.

Rated: Adult
Categories: X2
Characters: None
Genres: Adult, Angst, Vignette
Tags: None
Warnings: None

Series: None
Chapters: 1
Wordcount: 487 - Hits: 2948
Complete?: Yes - Published: 02/27/2011 - Last Updated: 02/27/2011
Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 02/27/2011 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

Ouch. Severely fucking ouch. But so worth the effort ... her, and you ;) A truly lovely piece of writing. (But - ouch!!!!)

Author's Response: Thank you!! I\'m glad you liked, and yeah, I think \'ouch\' sums it up well! I know that\'s how I was feeling when I finished writing. Very pouty face at what Logan did.

Now COMPLETE!

Yes, another AU. :-D Logan is on a mission to contact a powerful mutant and convince her to join the X-Men. Things go awry, of course. ;-) Here's an excerpt: “You’ve been shot before,” she said, and he could practically see her mind piecing it together. “And you don’t want to go to the authorities.” He saw that icy calmness creep back into her demeanor as her scent changed sharply. She was no longer afraid for him, now she was afraid of him. “Who do you work for? Did he send you to find me?”

Rated: NC-17
Categories: AU
Characters: None
Genres: Action, Adult, Angst, Drama, Shipper
Tags: None
Warnings: None

Series: None
Chapters: 13
Wordcount: 34127 - Hits: 90069
Complete?: Yes - Published: 03/27/2011 - Last Updated: 05/07/2011
Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 03/27/2011 Title: Chapter 1: The Contact

Canadian! Heh. Lucky I'm not allowed to drink coffee near the laptop anymore ... I really like the tone you are setting here; them bonding over mutual mutie protecting gives me the warm fuzzies. I can see a rocky read ahead when Marie finds out about the X-mansion, but I am sure you'll give us some more bonding moments to ooh over before the shit hits the fan. Looking forward to it!

Author's Response: Glad you\'re liking it! And yes, you\'re quite prescient about the rocky road ahead, and the bonding in the meantime. Now you know as much as I do!

Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 04/09/2011 Title: Chapter 4: The Agreement

Ooh, that's just mean. Poor Rogue, all manipulated like that. Loved the warm tone of the last two chapters, the slow trust that is building between them, even if Logan isn't being honest. He's going to pay. *nods* Really enjoying this!

Author's Response: Thanks so much for your review! Yes, he will pay dearly. Poor Logan, I actually just finished that chapter and I feel for them both. Hopefully the readers will feel the same.

Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 04/09/2011 Title: Chapter 5: The Attraction

Awwww. So sweet. There's something about your tone in this (chapter in particular, and story in general) that is very gentle and warm. You captured that warm, blissful feeling of a warm car and relaxed company perfectly.

One small niggle - "He was built for stealth, not subterfuge." Are they not the same thing?

Author's Response: Thanks so much for the compliment. I love warm cars and roadtrips, so hopefully that\'s what came across. To me, subterfuge is trickery, deception, strategems, that kind of thing. Logan\'s M.O. is to go in quiet, do the job, and get out -- stealth. The way this mission is playing out with the lying and manipulation to me is subterfuge, and he\'s not cut out for it.

Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed star star star star star
Date: 04/09/2011 Title: Chapter 1: The Contact

Just came back to give you some stars. Because you deserve them.

Author's Response: Aw, thanks, darlin\'! ;-)

Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 04/11/2011 Title: Chapter 6: The Experiment

Awwww. Sweet. I'm enjoying the alternaverse you've got going one - Bobby goes Brotherhood, Pyro stays behind etc. Be interesting to see how that plays out in future.

Author's Response: I\'m glad you\'re liking it! Yes, Pyro always struck me as the more interesting of the two, so I figured I\'d keep him around. ;-) And I like the idea of a Marie-Bobby dynamic having played itself out but in an alternate way.

Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 04/14/2011 Title: Chapter 7: The Complication

Ay caramba. That's one hell of a setdown. Possibly one of the best chapters I've ever read in fic, full stop. Gorgeously erotic to start, tense and plotty in the middle, turns poignant as GrumpyLogan gets the guilts, then ... wham. Denouement. But there's hope for the future ... crazygood work. *breaths*

Author's Response: Thanks so much! That\'s quite a compliment. LOL at \"GrumpyLogan gets the guilts,\" that covers it nicely. ;-) Thanks as always for reviewing! Now get back to writing Sleeping Dogs...

He wanted her to be untouchable.

Rated: Adult
Categories: X1, X-Men Origins Wolverine
Characters: None
Genres: Shipper
Tags: None
Warnings: None

Series: None
Chapters: 1
Wordcount: 4811 - Hits: 6220
Complete?: Yes - Published: 05/18/2011 - Last Updated: 05/18/2011
Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 05/18/2011 Title: Chapter 1: Chapter 1

It amazes me when someone hits on a completely new idea, one that is completely original to the fandom. What I can't figure out is how we have missed this, because the way you tell it, this IS what happened. You, creating canon, right there, I think. The idea of Wolverine being uncomfortable with love is old, but uncomfortable with physical touch! So incredibly right, and true to that character. And yes, marvelous writing, very tight and incisive and evocative. But that idea ... has me buzzing. Shut up brain. (And welcome to the WRFA!)

Author's Response: Thanks, JoS :D The connection was what drove me out of lurkdom. I hadn\'t seen it written before and I wanted to play with it. And keep your brain buzzing, I love your fic :D

Rogue and Logan talk about the values of memories. A character study piece.

Rated: PG-13
Categories: X1, X2, X3
Characters: None
Genres: Angst, General
Tags: None
Warnings: Not Beta Read

Series: None
Chapters: 1
Wordcount: 1204 - Hits: 2047
Complete?: Yes - Published: 05/27/2011 - Last Updated: 05/27/2011
Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 05/28/2011 Title: Chapter 1: Running After the Rain

Well, for me, there can never be enough good fic, so I'd argue this one isn't finished. But I will admit it's a lovely, poignant standalone piece that is quite complete in itself. I would, however, be keen to see Logan grow, move past that place where he realises what he is doing, but hasn't got the will not to do it. That would be a nice part two ... if you're inclined.

My first challenge fic. The challenge was for a oneshot, where 1. Logan loses a bet to Marie, 2. Rated M, 3. Involves a chainsaw. Yup, you heard me, a chainsaw. Don't worry, nothing too kinky. ;-) Rated M for dirty thoughts, but otherwise it's my usual -- angst, a dab of smut, and a happy ending. Enjoy!

Rated: Mature
Categories: X1, X2
Characters: None
Genres: Adult, Angst, Friendship, PWP, Shipper, UST
Tags: None
Warnings: None

Series: None
Chapters: 1
Wordcount: 3816 - Hits: 4840
Complete?: Yes - Published: 06/12/2011 - Last Updated: 06/12/2011
Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 06/15/2011 Title: Chapter 1: The Bet

I just came back to review and saw this was actually complete. Disappointed face. But then I told myself, the anticipation's the thing! The move from melancholy to playful to confident to "no shortage of ideas". Very nice indeed, and I promise not to demand a sequel. So this is me, not demanding. At all. *whimpers*

Author's Response: Aw, sorry, but the challenge was for a one-shot, so I think there it will stay. Besides, I already wrote a Logan-and-Marie-getting-it-on-while-she-has-Jean\'s-telepathy sex scene in The Target, it might be too much of a rehash. Up for a new challenge if you have one, though, this one was fun!

Just who came back from Canada...?

Rated: NC-17
Categories: X3, X-Men Origins Wolverine
Characters: None
Genres: Shipper
Tags: None
Warnings: None

Series: None
Chapters: 3
Wordcount: 4279 - Hits: 16919
Complete?: No - Published: 06/13/2011 - Last Updated: 07/13/2011
Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 06/15/2011 Title: Chapter 2: Chapter 2

I'm suspecting Wolverine is pretty much an antidote to anything :) You've captured his rawness perfectly and I'm finding his possessiveness (v Logan) quite intriguing."Say my name". "Good enough". Good enough that she wants them both? Suggesting that he would REALLY prefer it if it was only the Wolverine she wanted, and not Logan? If this is not the end, would love to see that little showdown teased out ... and you get an A+ from me for this word picture alone: e dropped to his knees, creating deep hollows in the earth from his weight. Hot hands stroked over her knees. He pushed upwards, the tingle of want keeping her breath short and a smile twitched across his mouth. He nuzzled against the crease of her thigh. His low, vibrating growl ran heat deep into the flesh."

Thank you for that. Really :D

Author's Response: Thanks, Jaq :)

Logan comes back after a few years ready to accept his claim to Marie only to have a tendency of walking in on the wrong end of things. Misunderstandings arise that cause him to question whether he and Marie belong together.

Rated: R
Categories: X2, AU
Characters: None
Genres: PWP
Tags: None
Warnings: Not Beta Read

Series: None
Chapters: 6
Wordcount: 14136 - Hits: 29363
Complete?: Yes - Published: 06/19/2011 - Last Updated: 08/08/2011
Reviewer: JaqofSpades Signed
Date: 06/21/2011 Title: Chapter 1: Give me head

Now, that is just mean! You deserve a spanking for putting poor Logan through that :D Loved Logan's confusion about the possibility of Rogue and Xavier: "older, and a bald man." Because lack of hair is just sooooo problematic, Logan. Nice little misunderstanding you've got going on there - look forward to seeing the rest.

Author's Response: Not my fault that Logan always jumps to conclusions. ;)