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Innocence.
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Her innocence.
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The prospect thrilled him.
And disgusted him at the same time.
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He wanted her.
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That much would always be true, but was it right to take advantage of a woman who he protected and cared for?
Rogue was like his princess.
He would do anything to keep her safe and happy.
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Lord knows he had put her thought enough heartache to last a life time.
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Her heart broke every time that he left.
He knew it.
Because she told him.
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She got him get a cell phone so that she could keep in touch with him.
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a lot of times all her heard was her crying voice mails because he would go days without even looking at his phone.
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Crying.
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She was still crying.
Hell they were still in the forest where she had just admitted saving herself for him.
She was his.
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She was his.
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He simply couldn’t get over the idea.
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“kid? You okay?”
He spoke softly watching her dry the tears from her eyes.
She bristled at the term kid.
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“Logan, when is you gonna see me for the woman ah am?”
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He messed up again, he knew it now.
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“Im sorry Anna, you have to believe me”
And she did, she believed him with every fiber of her being.
Part of it was because she trusted him.
Part of it was because she had his memories and his personality roaming around in her brain.
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He watched the emotions flicker across her face before she spoke.
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“ah want you to know what its like to see everything inside of mah head, ah see so much of whats in yoah head, but you never seen inside of mine.”
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Logan said nothing, he knew that something like that couldn’t happen, not with the mess his brain was in after all the experiments from weapon x.
Xavier had described his mind like a maze once.
couldn’t tell what was real and what was fake.
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He couldn’t put her through that.
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“rogue, I don’t think that’s such a good Idea.”
He was honest with her, that was a good start.
“you don’t know what youre going to find in there, and who knows if you will remain the same after it all?”
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“Logan-”
He avoided her gaze, looked anywhere but into her beautiful face.
“Logan! Look at me when ah am speaking!”
He looked up, past the tight material she was wearing.
Past those delectably kissable lips.
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Beautiful red rimmed eyes.
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that’s what he was looking into now.
Her big beautiful eyes.
He really could get lost in them.
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He wanted her.
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He bit his bottom lip as he watched her lick her lips.
It was torture.
He was all the way over here but her and that ‘leave nothing to the imagination’ outfit was way over there.
Had to be that way though.
Or else he wouldn’t be able to stop himself.
wouldn’t be able to think straight.
He waited for her to speak.
“Logan”
His name sounded like ecstasy when she said it.
“ah know your mind already sugah, ah got a little of you roaming around in my brain most times”
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She licked her lips again.
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Fuck.
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He wanted her.
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“ah know what youre thinking”
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“how would you know what im thinking?”
He nearly growled the words as he tried to contol himself.
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“ah, well ah am in your head, I don’t have a conscience anymore logan, its kinda like ah have your voice steering me right from wrong”
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“Then tell me Kid, what am I thinking?”
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His voice was rough when he spoke, his fists were clenched and he was down right angry.
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He didn’t want her in his head!
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There was too much at stake.
Too many traps.
Too many nightmares and heartaches.
She was too young to have to deal with all that.
She was his princess.
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She was his.
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He wanted to protect her.
Knowing that all the evil parts of his mind that tormented him were floating freely in her brain killed him.
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Did she feel the blood lust too?
Did she ever feel his rage?
Had she ever seen the times he had ached for her?
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His stomach lurched at the thought that she could have seen his biggest secret.
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His chest grew tight and his vision blurred.
He thought he was going to be ill.
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Maybe she had seen it before.
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He was beginning to sweat.
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Maybe she had seen the times he had gone home with a woman.
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He was loosing concentration.
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Maybe she had seen when he touched those women he imagined it was her skin he was touching.
Maybe she had seen that when he closed his eyes it was her he was seeing.
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He was scared.
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He was scared that she would see that no matter how many women he had he was still never satisfied.
He was never satisfied because it was never her.
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It was never her lips he was kissing.
It was never her skin he was touching.
It was never her scent he was breathing in.
It was never her hands running over his flesh.
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It was never her.
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Logan doubled over.
He retched violently but could not empty his stomach.
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He wanted to release everything.
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He wanted to purge.
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But it was his mind he wanted to purge.
He wanted to be rid of every impure thought.
Wanted to forget every time that he had thought of her impurely.
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He wanted her.
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That was the one thing that he knew would never change.
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“Logan?”
Her voice was easy on the ears.
Like silk sheets in the summer time.
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“Go away Kid! You don’t know me and you sure as hell don’t know what im thinking!”
He snapped at her like a wounded animal.
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He didn’t even have time to breath.
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She was right upon him.
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She was nose to nose with him.
Her breath was fanning over his face.
She was pissed.
He could feel it.
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“Logan”
She snarled.
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She sounded like him.
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“Logan, I will have you know, I know all about you, I know more about you then even you know yourself.”
He couldn’t quite pin who she sounded like.
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“and Im telling you. I know what your thinking. I know how you feel and most of all I know all your memories and your secrets. All your secrets Logan.”
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His hands clenched and he raised a hand to push her away.
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“you push me away and I swear I am going to rip both of your arms from your body.”
Her brows were furrowed and she was nearly spitting when she spoke.
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“I know about your little whores. I know its me your seeing when youre with them. And I know that you want me. I know you logan, I know that you wont act on those feelings because you want me to be pure. You don’t want to defile me. But you want to keep me for yourself. don’t you think I could smell your pheremones rise when I told you I was yours? You wanted me logan. Now let me show you inside of my head.”
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Her hands reached out for his face.
Her fingers felt like needles poking into his skull.
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This was not the static that he had come to enjoy.
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This was not his rogue.
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He could smell it now.
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Emma Frost.
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