They did their best to scramble me, break this last shred of what I had left.
“Let me look at you.” Let me. Let me hold you, please.
I have to see. Are you still whole?
Stop struggling.
Hair.
Brown, cascading down back.
White stripes framing her face. Why white?
I have to remember. It was important. It is important.
She was dead. She died. She died and I could touch her. Her skin.
Skin.
Can’t touch now.
She’s poison, pretty poison.
“Logan, let me go. Please, let me go.”
“I won’t hurt you, just let me remember.”
Not as pale as she was before, I’m sure. She’s better now. She was sick?
Not sick. She was hungry. Fucking starving.
Such a pretty little thing.
Too little and thin.
Hollow cheeks.
Eyes.
“Logan, please… I tried, I really tried! You have to believe me! I didn’t want to let you down!”
Let me down? Never. You couldn’t do that, not even if you tried.
“Look at me.” Let me see your eyes.
Are they still deep dark pools?
Hunger is gone.
Fear.
Oh, God.
She’s afraid.
She’s afraid of me.
Fucking idiot. What the hell did you expect?
She’s not yours, never was; yet you barge in and claim her as if she were some sort of prize.
Go.
Turn around.
Turn around and walk away.
I can do this. She’s alright. Better than alright as soon as I let her be.
They fucked up my head, broke her, but just in my head. She is alright. There’s not a scratch on her.
And I fucking won! Beat them all! They couldn’t make me forget!
Not this time. But some things I got wrong.
She was never afraid before.
Not afraid of me.
“Kid?”
She’s fast. Gone within a blink of an eye. Have to find her one more time.
“Logan, what’s going on? I just saw Rogue and she looked…”
Marie, asshole. It’s Marie. And none of your business.
“Logan, wait! You can’t just harass her…”
Harass? I can’t and I won’t.
I just want to talk.
Apologize.
Up the stairs.
Turn to left, her room.
This must be it. Can smell her.
“Kid? Can… Can I come in? I…”
She’s fucking crying. Christ. Scared her.
“I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you, I was just…”
“Oh, God! Logan, I’m sorry! I tried to remember you and keep you safe, and I failed and…”
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