He has been gone for a while. I can’t help wondering where he is. If he’s okay.
I remember the way he looked at me when he gave me his tags.
I remember how he reached for the streaks of white.
I remember his promise.
Logan.
He never smiled.
He never let his anger show, not to me.
He never shied away from my touch, not even at the statue.
Up there I had to pry his hands away, force him to cut the connection.
Wolverine.
The name they gave to him.
Small and vicious beast, selfish and arrogant.
I guess there are people who think the name’s fitting.
They don’t know him, not the way I do.
They haven’t really seen inside.
They haven’t seen him.
Logan.
Jean tells me every day that it’s unhealthy to cling to the memory of him.
She tells me I should stop wearing his tags.
She tells me I should live.
Start dating.
Bitch.
How could I?
She’s not mean or jealous.
She just doesn’t understand why I refuse to let go.
She tells me that it’s superstitious to think that remembering him would keep him safe.
Silly.
Silly little girl.
With a crush to a man at least twice her age.
I can see them thinking when they look at me, pity clouding their eyes.
Poor Rogue, she’ll worry her heart out for the bastard.
I don’t need their pity. I don’t want it.
Only thing I want is out there.
Hopefully safe.
Logan.
Perhaps only one who understands to some extent is Scott. He understands but doesn’t approve.
He was there, climbing towards us and saw me fight off Logan’s grasping hands.
He doesn’t hold a grudge; I think he’s relieved that it is I instead of Jean.
But he disapproves anyway.
Told me to loose the tags.
They’re Logan’s.
His promise.
I’m going to hold on to it.
I’m afraid that if I let go I let go of him as well.
Superstitious? Perhaps, I don’t care. I don’t want to forget.
His voice in me is already fading, and I want to keep the rest of him in my mind.
I want to keep him well and safe, give him shelter from the wind and rain raging outside.
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Author's Chapter Notes:
Marie's turn.