How the hell did we wind up like this?
Why weren´t we able
To see the signs that we missed
and tried to turn the tables?
I wish you´d unclench your fists
and unpack your suitcase
Lately there´s been too much of this,
but don´t think it´s too late
Nothin´s wrong just as long as you know that someday I will

I can`t stand putting her through this pain. I thought two people who cared for each other as much as we do would wind up with a happy ever after ending. They would spend the rest of their lives together. Which, in our case, might not have been that long. Just seeing her standing there, with tears crawling down her cheeks and her suitcase all backed. Her fists clenched so tightly, I could see the blood oozing from between her fingers, broke my heart. I didn't realize that she loved me so much. If I had, I would have tried harder. I would have done anything to make her happy.

Someday, somehow I´m gonna make it alright,
but not right now
I know you´re wondering when
(You´re the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow I´m gonna make it alright,
but not right now
I know you´re wondering when

He always promised that he would make everything fine. He told me over and over that he would make everything alright and perfect so that when the time came, he would be with me. I miss the way that we would talk and laugh together and how things used to be, when I was still a kid. I miss the way that he was never afraid to hug me or touch me, even if it was to pat my head. I miss everything about the way he used to be, he made me feel normal. And now… now I want to know what's going to happen next. What am I going to do without him?

And I hope that since we´re here anyway,
we can end it, saying
Things we´ve always needed to say,
so we can end up staying
Now the story´s played out like this
just like a paperback novel
Let´s rewrite an ending that fits
instead of a Hollywood horror
Nothin´s wrong just as long as you know that someday I will

I thought that we would have forever. Forever isn't nearly as long as I wish it could be. There are so many things that I haven't said yet, things that she deserves to know before she makes a mistake. Things I have no way of telling her anymore. Nothing is right. I feel like I am in some sad horror movie that is just dragging along. She will go one her first mission without me tonight. I hope she remembers our two year old daughter at home.

Someday, somehow I´m gonna make it alright,
but not right now
I know you´re wondering when
(You´re the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow I´m gonna make it alright,
but not right now
I know you´re wondering when
(You´re the only one who knows that)

I can almost feel him watching over me like he did when I went on the missions with him. This isn't that hard. I am the strongest member of the team. Physically anyway. I don't really know about emotionally, much less mentally. I do miss him, though. We had some great times together on these missions. We would do things that would make Scott and Jean blush. I miss the way that he used to growl as he came.

How the hell did we wind up like this?
Why weren´t we able
To see the signs that we missed
and tried to turn the tables?
I wish you´d unclench your fists
and unpack your suitcase
Lately there´s been too much of this,
but don´t think it´s too late
Nothin´s wrong just as long as you know that someday I will
Someday, somehow I´m gonna make it alright,
but not right now
I know you´re wondering when
(You´re the only one who knows that)

I can see her now, walking through that small tunnel. She is quicker than the others, and stronger, too. She'll be able to handle this, as long as she keeps her head focused. I don't know why Xavier sent her out so soon. Too soon, if you ask me. He thinks that it will help her get past what happened. That wasn't too long ago, though. If I could change it, I would. But there is no way I can take it back. Someday I'll make everything better for her again. Someday, I'll be able to tell her I love her again. Someday, I'll be able to hold her, and kiss her, and make love to her. And we wont have to restrain our selves. They said I was unbeatable. No one ever said anything about being immortal.

Someday, somehow I´m gonna make it alright,
but not right now
I know you´re wondering when
(You´re the only one who knows that)
I know you´re wondering when
(You´re the only one who knows that)
I know you´re wondering when