do you know, i would have died?
i would have turned my bones to dust
and offered my flesh for his banquet
until he had gorged his fill.
i would have smiled through it all
if it would have kept you safe.

do you know, i would have bled?
i would have stretched out my bare wrists
and let him drive through my flesh the spikes
he has fashioned for you.
i would have worn the thorns and laughed
if it would have saved you from his burning cross.

but i was not allowed to die.
i was not allowed to bleed.
i could only watch
as he lusted for your soul.
i could only scream in silence
as the fear shrouded your eyes
and i wanted nothing more
in that crystal of eternity
than to take your place
but i was not allowed.

do you know, i would have burned?
i would have re-lived every needle scar
and every slice of metal through my skin
if it would set you free.
i would have walked across the coals
if it would have kept you uncharred.

do you know, i would have stood
and let him pry my body apart
with his demon power and cruel eyes
that flay mind?
i would not have much as flinched
if it meant you would remain untouched.

but i was not allowed to burn.
i was not allowed to defend.
i could only watch
in agony no mortal before us
or after us can ever know
as i dangled helpless before you,
and i wanted nothing more
in that frozen heartbeat
than to hold you again
and wipe away the tears.

do you know, i would have said
i love you?
but i was not even allowed
goodbye.