Oh, Ara. This is what I was afraid of after last chapter--that she'd eventually end up enjoying it and it would tear them apart. Marie would feel guilty and shame and need Logan then, need forgiveness. And Logan would be feeling the same, would be unable to take away that shame through touch. It'd be eating up at him, too. Because how can she ever trust him again? And really, isn't that a *very* good question--if he can turn into Wolverine at any time, as he's shown up until this point, what's to stop that happening again? Can she *ever* be safe with Logan if she's not safe with Wolverine?

And Logan loved her for her innocence and purity, and if in his own mind, he's the one to extinguish that--what then? Does he put behind him forever the desire to be man?

And for her, this was her greatest fear--more than capture, more being found out. She never wanted Camo's eager, animal fucks, destined to reproduce in a lab, and now she's raped (and sure to be impregnated) by the only man she's ever trusted, too.

And I think this chapter shows that *he's* being raped, too, really--with the drugs, by the guards. A mindfuck.

How absolutely *horrible* for both of them. But you know--as terrible as this all is, you still haven't made me *hate* Wolverine. He's...I don't know how I'd describe him, but he's been made this way. This is the way he copes, and this is how he wants and lives. He's closed and determined and brutal, but it's always a necessary brutality. It's somehow always a reflection of what's been done to him and what he must do to survive. If it weren't how it was with Marie, I'd almost be glad he'd found his *something*. If only it wasn't her, if only it wasn't this.

*shudder* It's so raw, these last few chapters. They're so short, and yet I seem to be able to feel and see everything. Incredible writing. *pleads* Please make it better?

Author's Response: To Logan this doesn't tarnish her innocence. She isn't volunteering to this. Even Wolverine seems to realize that. Actually Logie has been quite mad at me lately because I listened to Wolverine rather than wrote what he wanted me to write. This part of the story is called Destroyer for a reason. Something must come down and be Destroyed before they can start building again. Don't know yet what it is, but I'm sure Wolverine will tell it to me eventually.

aawwwww! this is heart wrenching! I feel terrible for all of them. Please Logan Come back for good!!! (glad to see a glimpse of him this time!) Can't wait for the next chapter!